31 Mar, 2026
Never understood most peoples tastes. How does anyone find JUST attractive people attractive? Like obviously a hot chick is hot, but what about being retarded or suicidal? I wouldnt last a day with someone who isnt either.
17 Mar, 2026
I FEEL GREAT! I say I dont care about living but god, its the ONLY thing I care about. I cant stand being a fucking slave. I can make so much more money illegally.. Hahaha, Just kidding!!!
04 Mar, 2026
Got blackout at the bar the other night and swallowed a quarter. Still havent shit it out.. but I am shittin blood. Whoops. I got my new peircing in, its kindof huge and will take a bit to get used to, but its cool. It was originally only a labret, but it was too heavy on my chin so I bent a ring peircing into a vertical labret and let it sit on my lip for extra support, and good god it feels 10 times better. Anyways, i've smoked like 4 bowls of dope and im havin a beer b4 bed. Night!
Pictured above: Me holding my beloved son
25 Feb, 2026
Welp, I've got nothing planned for today. Think I'm gonna sleep in for half of it, considering i'ts now 7:30 in the morning, and I havent slept at all. I think I'm gonna give up asking for help. Im going insane waiting for someone to commit to me. I've genuinely spent every single day of this month in pain.. It really wont go away!... I've got a parasite in my brain.. just gotta take those "mood stabilizers" again, and i'll be fine.
11 Feb, 2026
Feeling frustrated and sad, I guess. I don't like the problems in the world and the fact that I am powerless to fix them. I feel shame for my rambles on here, but I can't stand to fake it. I have the worst guilty conscience ever. I know something is going to happen one day. I don't like the way people treat me, I don't enjoy feeling so alien. I wish I was naturally sociable because I don't really feel like lying to people in order to get closer to them. For some people, that's a natural response and they have no ill intent, but because I'm aware of it, I don't feel safe doing it. I wish there was someone in the world who understood my flaws genuinely, not someone who wants to look past them.
04 Feb, 2026
Testing out new layouts and shit. Some stuff I just cant figure out. OH well.. Took out the about me page, music, and other shit until I can make it work again...
23 Jan, 2026
I cant fucking sleep!! I swear to god Im noctornal or something.. maybe it has to do with it being winter. Ive been practicing DJing, and I'm actually doing pretty good considering I spent the past 10 hours on it... Selecting music is the biggest thing Im struggling with right now, that and having to stare at a flashing screen for so long.. I had to put my shades on after a bit, which made me feel pretty fukkin cool. I just wish they werent falling apart on my face.
8 Jan, 2026
Day 3 of working out complete, and I already feel amazing. My body is aching, which is awesome, because its a reminder that im achieveing something. Although I dont have a scehduled time to work out Ive still been doing 30 minutes every day. I was going to do counted sets but found that going until failure works well enough. Added planking to the list, which is NOT fun to do after pushups. Im not worried about working out legs right now, just my arms / lats / core. Im still off of fast food!!! Im not completely changing my diet, mostly because I dont have to for what my goals are but also because I eat healthy enough as it is. Found out that adding salt to water with fruit in it makes powerade. Yum.
21 Nov, 2025 - edit
When I was younger I would get really drunk and go for walks almost every night. I would carry weapons, usually knives, and hang out around shelters, gas stations, under bridges, just trying to get into a fight. I would draw myself killing people who pissed me off or bullied me, or just random people raping and eating eachother.. I have always been obsessed with violence. It feels like theres something evil coercing me through lust, drugs, alcohol, whatever it can, whenever im vunerable. I have been trying to escape through small windows of reality, music, art, but somethings wrong. I cant even sleep without it chasing me there. I cant even fucking SLEEP. Im awake, im aware, it is not sleep, its another dimension.. ive tried to break out, gotten close but I just cant. Its all so fucking humiliating. I am man, I should have control but I dont. This is going to be the death of me.
23 Sep, 2025
I am personally antivax. Not because I know anything about science, but because I don't trust that the government wants to keep me healthy. I dont care if other people decide to get them, do what you want with your own body. I was only vaccinated for measles as a kid I believe, but I have refused everything else since. No, I don't have any health conditions. People don't argue with me about this surprisingly, they usually say they don't blame me for being paranoid.. so that's a nice little surprise. I watched a family member suffer from the side effects of the COVID vaccine. She had no health conditions, was under 25, and then randomly started having seizures about 2 weeks after she got it. People blame coincidence, I dont. But other than that, it's all just general distrust in the government. In the case something were to outbreak, and my gut instinct told me to get a vaccine, I would. that probably won't happen though. But who knows! Shit happens..
28 Jul, 2025
I hate ai! We could have totally used it for good but we fucked it up, just like we always fucking do. Anyone who uses AI to generate art, responses, videos, is nothing but a brain dead fucking idiot to me. I don't care. I obviously know there is (and has been for quite some time) good AI , but i'm specifically talking about the awful new gen skull rotting bullshit. GROSS!
19 Jun, 2025
Selling art is hard. I would love to make a living off of this shit but the market is pretty much nonexistant at this point. Especially for what I draw, not many people want a picture of zombie tits on their wall... But I refuse to pander to what sells. Even if i make jack shit off of my art, im stayin true to what i like, and thats zombie tits!!!!!!!!